What is the right choice?

I love my family so much. For such a long time I have had to make decisions based off what was best for my family. My oldest child was 5 years older than the next, then there was an 8 year difference to the next with the last following 2 1/2 years later. There was a lot to consider for what was the best for each one.

We lived in Utah for 8 years and we loved every minute of it. I was raised in Florida but my heart will always be in Utah. I felt prompted to move back to Florida and have found many reasons why we should have been here at the time we moved back, almost 9 years ago. I am still finding reasons why.

I have a daughter with an eye disease, I just learned Friday that Florida, in fact the county we live in, has the best resources to help with children with eye diseases. I knew it was another reason, and quietly thanked my Heavenly Father for his wisdom in bringing us back. But it was through spiritual guidance that we are here.

I have always planned to move back once I felt no reason to have to stay here. Florida is beautiful but I hate bugs, humidity and hurricanes, so I knew I wouldn't stay the rest of my life. I live with my mom and we just found out this past year that she has Parkinson's Disease but not real far advanced. So I knew my plan to leave needed to be delayed.

My oldest daughter married a wonderful man from the west, all his family lives there except one brother who is in the military. They are living in Florida and have 2 of the most beautiful sons (yes, I am a little partial). My son-in-law has a great job and has done real well here in Florida. But his parents are getting older and he thinks about being so far away from them.

My daughter spoke to me about their desire to return to Utah and has asked me to consider moving back too. I was excited but I knew that it might not be possible any time soon. So I spoke to my mom about selling and moving west. She was against it, now I am torn between moving some place I want to be and near my children or to stay some place I don't really want to be but to be here while my mother needs me.

What is the right choice? How do I make the best decision?

I have 4 children and they will leave me and go their own way some day. They cannot base their life decisions on me, they have to decide what is best for them and the family they will have so perhaps I have to look at what is best for me.

I left my mother when I married and started my own life, but do I leave her now that she is ill in order to live my own life? I love my mother so much, I can't desert her. She has never deserted me throughout my life. I told her I would not go to Utah while she is alive unless she had someone else to live with her.  She feels bad knowing how much I loved being there. I don't want her to feel bad about something that is out of her control. But now I have to decide what is the best decision, how do I do this?

My thoughts take me to my Father in Heaven. I trust him to help me make the best decisions, I always have, that's what brought me back to Florida. I told my children that I would council with Heavenly Father and then make the a decision but it will be awhile before it can all happen anyway, so I have time to decide.

If we put our lives in His hands and trust in Him to help us, no matter if it's not what we want, then it will all be well and for the best. We are told that we should weigh it out in our minds, make a decision and go to the Lord for a confirmation of our decision, that is what I will do. I will put all my trust in Him and I know everything will be all right, no stress...well, maybe a little.